Now I'm both sad and happy. Sad because it's over, and happy because it was such a beautiful finale. Actually I don't think I have ever been that satisfied by a finale. As much as I loved OZ, Buffy or Battlestar Galactica, their finale were not perfect, even though I forgave them for a few things with the passing of time, and I wasn't super impressed by the finale of The Wire either...as for Deadwood's last episode, it wasn't really supposed to be a finale so...
BrBa didn't disappoint. They didn't try to pull off final twists, they just wrapped things up, in a beautiful way. Every scene was kind of expected but so masterfully shot, and played, so touching or thrilling, so poetical too. Walter's journey ended the best way it could have, and his last scenes with (or sorta without) the most important people in his life were subtly perfect. I liked them a lot.
I liked them so much that I'm going to turn a blind eye on the fact that the Nazis didn't check the trunk of Walt's car...
The Eliott and Gretchen thing was terrific, and having Badger and Skinny Pete as "the best hitmen" was cherry on the top. I knew Walter was bluffing and that he hadn't hired hitmen but it's only when they ran towards his car that I suddenly thought of the only two guys he could have hired, and there they were. It was such a light note, recalling how hilarious the show used to be in its first seasons.
Walter saying his final goodbyes to Skyler and Holly was moving, but his watching Flynn from afar was heartbreaking. At least with his meth son he got a proper goodbye!
As for the lyrics of the final song, so perfect!!!! And I don't care about what others may say, I will believe for the rest of my days that "the special love I had for you" and "the baby blue" are as much about Jesse as about chemistry.
I loved the last Jesse/Walt scene, not the one in which Jesse refused to do what Walt wanted -- although I really liked it too, and I'm happy they didn't make him kill his Mr White, and I'm glad it was more ambiguous than a simple "fuck-you-bitch!", since Jesse spotted Walt's wound and knew Walt had already killed himself (had he not saved Jesse from the machine gun by throwing himself upon him and tackling him, he would probably not have been shot) before he decided to throw the gun, and since I believe that Walt lied when he said "I want this" but just said the words Jesse needed to hear so Jesse could say what he had to say and do what he had to do and therefore be totally be free from Walt (it's the perfect counterpoint to the scene with Skyler, when Walt tells the truth to Skyler, admitting that he did everything for himself) -- no, I mean the one outside before Jesse got in the car. There are no words spoken, but a lot of silent forgiveness and damaged love (but it's love still) in there, as they both know it's really over this time, and they can part ways without anger and hate, and know they will never see each other again...and it's a good thing for Jesse.
When Walt nods, it's a bit cliché, but in my head I hear him say "You can go now, son". And Jesse finally
Even Walter dying in the lab is something that can be read as him being in his favourite place to die (his real home), with chemistry, that is one of his loves (because I believe he did love Skyler, and his kids, and Hank, and Jesse too), and therefore as an answer to his prayer from the teaser ("just get me home"); but it also means that he's freeing Jesse again, for everybody would think he had been the cook there and no one else made that blue meth in the last six months. Just like when Walt exonerated Skyler with his phonecall at the end of "Ozymandias". He mostly did everything for himself but sometimes he did things for others too, usually the ones he had also hurt the most.
So I'm still a Walt/Jesse shipper at heart. It is so romantic and yet asexual. I've always thought that Walter would be killed by cancer, but it's his final move to save Jesse that kills him on screen, and it works, probably because it happens in the last moment, when something basic kicks in. Walter's ego was hurt when he realised that Jesse was cooking his product and was being just as good as he was, but eventually he still saves him.
I realise now that if Walter had gone to rescue Jesse when he bought the machine gun, it would have been too sentimental, and not consistent with the previous episodes, but his saving Jesse that way does work. It kinda echoes the scene in which he suddenky left the family table to save Jesse in "Half Measures". Impulsive Walter has always been there inside the Mastermind.
When all is said and done, Walter White is the most fascinating and complex -- and so human for his huge flaws, his pettiness and for his moments of caring or decency-- character ever showed on television. He was special enough (his science skills and intelligence made him kinda special) to have an extraordinary journey in the crime world, and yet he was everyman, and his story is a cautionary tale.
In this final episode, even before his actual death, Walter is already a ghost, an invisible man that cops keep not seeing, either in the cold open or when they are watching Skyler's apartment, which is kinda the opposite of Walt's usual lust for recognition. Invisible Walter walks into The Schwartz's home, and scares them to death, because that's what ghosts do.
Of course Lydia and Todd don't see him either, until Walt suddenly makes himself visible. And when we see Lydia picking her stevia packet on the table we know that ricin must be in it, but we never saw Walter putting it in there. He's even a ghost to the viewers in the Skyler scene until the camera moves and reveals that he was in a dead angle. And Walter remains unseen when Flynn comes back from school.
Walter White was already terminally ill in the pilot, he had been granted a remission that was only a reprieve so he could feel alive and so, above all, the fantasy that was the show could go on for 6 years, but for 45 minutes "Felina" prepared us for a world without him, a world without Breaking Bad. It was such an elegant and right thing to do. In the last minutes, Walt works his science mojo and Heisenberg lives up to his legend and kills them all (well apart from Todd whom Jesse kills in a way that kinda recalled Walter's murdering Krazy-8), and it isn't realistic but it doesn't need to be. It's drama, it's kinda operatic even.
Walter White is already dead but still walking, talking on the phone to an equally already dead Lydia, standing still as a very much alive Jesse drives away, then walking towards the lab...like a soprano who sings her character's death during 5 minutes! But we are allowed some extra minutes of fantasy because it's art and having Walter finally gives up the ghost in a lab is just perfect, and because it always ends too soon when it's so good!
Where will I go from "Felina"? I felt so lucky to be a viewer of such fantastic tv series.
Fortunately I have kittens!